prezzel of passion

This day was not the best of my life and I feel as if my head is about to explode. So please do not take things too serious.

There is one thing that is really driving me crazy. Background music in german tv-shows. Who is responsible for this? And is this person really in capable of speaking and understanding the english language? Does he even care? And how come this person is still employed.
A few days ago for example I was watching a german tv-show which is mainly reporting about german students going abroad for some time. There was this one scene. A girl came back to germany from Canada (or somehting like that) since she had been 10 month on a student exchange. She steps out of the plane, her family waiting at the terminal. The background music comes in and I'm sitting in fornt of the TV screaming something like 'wtf'! Christina Aguilera - 'Hurt' They can't be serious...

These situations make me hope that one day I will be rich enough to buy the tv station a sack this person! The problem is it's not only this channel. Believe me there are lots of examples. Just turn on your TV and watch some tv show produced in germany. Of course there are some who don't make this horrible mistakes but those are rare...

I hope I'm not the only one annoyed by this ....! By the way excepts for having the talent to always pick the wrong song for the occasion they also seem to own about 5 cd's from which they pick the songs. Don't believe. Well try it. But before you turn your TV on let me give you a warning: "Please take a break every 30 minutes (when you are watching one of these shows) or your TV might get hurt by flying objects in your room!"

Am I more emotional than other persons or am I only more aware of my emotions? Or is it just that we all struggle to show our feelings? And if this is the case why do we do it? Why do we try to hide a natural reaction to a cause?

And are emotions reactions to our life or is our life designed by our emotions?

Are those who do not think about things as much as I do really happier with their life? Or are those who are often lost in thought about their life more satisfied?

How come that some words mean more to us than their official meaning? And how come we can 'feel' some words? (And please I don't want any answers concerning this questions which include de Saussure etc.)

A few days ago I was watching the movie 'Becoming Jane' like I already mentioned in one of my entries. While I was watching the movie I went through several emotions. And I mean it like I said it. I sat on my bed hoping, crying, yelling at the TV.
And no, I'm not ashamed of it. Actually this happens quite often. And yes, I know that movies are only fiction. It's just that movies really effect me, at least emotionally.
Of course I don't behave like this in a cinema or when other people are around, however if I am on my own and I am totally aware of the movie... oh well I get kind of lost in it. This happens with books as well.
I actually like those moments. It's nice to realize that you have all those feelings and that you are capable of expressing those.

Of course it's not only crying and yelling I can although laugh with all of my heart (especially because of silly things or for no reason at all). This evening for example, it took me half an hour to calm down. Why? Oh well...
I was watching the football match Bayern München - Aberdeen and at the end of the match the man who did the commentary said: "Und jetzt gebe ich runter zu Oliver Welke der bei Ottmar Hitzfeld steht!" The next thing you see is Ottmar Hitzfeld right beside Matthias Opdenhoevel (forgive me if there is a mistake in the spelling but this name is beyond my knowledge of spelling). That was not the funny part the funny part was that M.O. said: "Ich stehe hier bei O.H. und mein Name ist M.O. aber ich gratuliere ihnen trotzdem zu ihrem Sieg!"
Oh well I guess Pico sees what I am trying to say it's just hilarious when they get confused with the names. I really love it.
Another example maybe when I watched 'bullyparade classics' a few days ago. There was this sketch where bully was wearing a chicken costume and he was singing: 'weil ich ein hääääähnchen bin, komm doch mal rüber man, mach mich mit ketchup an, weil ich ein hähnchen bin weil ich ein hähnchen bin' Wonderful.