prezzel of passion

In this exact moment I should rather be writing my essay which is due tomorrow. However I can't find the motivation to continue writing it. (It's supposed to be 7 pages long and I only have half a page) But do I bother? Nope. And that exactly fits my situation over the past months. I simply don't care. At least not about University. It probably started when I had a fight with one of our teachers. I guess that was the moment my motivation ran into another direction and left me for at least more than a while.
After all I thought if I would put myself under pressure (like startin the essay today) I would get all nervous and motivated.... nice try though! Well at least I started writing it....
Lets face it the only thing about University that I'm looking forward to at the moment is my year abroad. And that is actually one topic I am horribly nervous and excited about. I don't know when, where and how to apply and if everything turns out fine. And what with all the costs?

But I really should be going now.... At least if I want to finish this essay until tomorrow....