prezzel of passion

It's funny how you think you can cope with things when you simply can't. That's one of the things I realized today. I know myself well and I thought I could deal with it but instead I found myself struggling and hurting. One of those painful facts was that I was almost expecting what happened and deep inside I might've even hoped for it. Eventhough what happened may not mean a lot for most of the earth's population, it did mean a lot to me. It taught me a lesson about myself I probably needed to learn.

And again I find myself wondering how being happy can be so painful!? Why do I lose all hope when I realize that I still get my hopes high? It simply confuses me. Everything about it. I tried. Hard! Or didn't I?

I fear I have no power to end this and that there is no fast and easy way to get through it. There is simply no way to forget it, that's what I know for sure. It's not much but at least it's something I can be sure of! That helps,a little, eventhough those aren't too good news. I don't know how others feel about such things, since I know I have a tendency to overreact but does it maybe hurt for others as bad as it does for me? And as long as it does with me? Or am I really "the only one who ever felt this way"? But I guess this world is way too big for such a thing!
Or is it?


"You never seem to wonder, how much you make me suffer...."
- Sugababes