prezzel of passion

A few months ago I went shopping with my best friend. We went to a clothing store and the following happend:
Two women came through the front door Both almost 40 years old I'd guess. They were having a conversation about the shops size. This is how it went:
women1: "Haben die hier auch oben?"
women2: "Nein, ein oben haben die hier nicht!"

I'ts not hard to imagine that most of the youth can't speak proper german when their parents talk like that.

When I started this blog my first entry was about things I have lost, things that reappeared and things that occasionally seem to lose the courage to remain at my side. After two months and a few days I kind of thought about answering to this entry.

As for the things I have/had lost:

My words have returned as you can see here
My courage does now belong to the last group as it takes its time of occasionally however I am grateful that it has at least decided to return to me form time to time
My sleep is now back in town for a few weeks although I already have the feeling that it is planning its next trip far away from me in the upcoming month.
My Walk the line cd however is still missing.

As for the things that were only lost from time to time:

My mind is still pretty inconsistent and leaves me occasionally. I guess that it has found a more reliable partner than me....
My knee cap however has until now stopped it's little trips and is now steady at my 'side'
My smile. Oh well I guess that it has formed a band with my mind and they are both touring the world whenever they find the need to do so....

As for the things that had come to visit me in February I must say they are still here right at my side although I'm trying to persuade my smile that my doubts are way cooler bandmember than my mind could ever be....

There was a wonderful moment a few days a go. I was doing the groceries at a supermarket (well of course) and I saw two of our new Basketball players (at least they look liked two basketball players...). Well who cares they were two tall guys speaking english (american but that's another guess) and one of them said
"Oh look there is a little water dispenser!!! This is like WalMart!!!"
He had a completely excited expression on his face as he said it. This was simply wonderful. I can't even point out what was so great about this moment. It was just wonderful.

(And no with 'expressions on their stupid faces' I don't mean those two, however it kind of works...)


Quote of the day: "You gotta embrace your inner freak!" (Heroes Season 1.1)

Things I seemed to have lost during the last weeks...
... my words (those little cowards hide somewhere and won't come out to help me get along with my life as they used to)
... my courage (there must be somewhere with the words they kind of disappeared at the same time)
... my Walkt the line CD (It's simply gone but I guess it hides somewhere in my music shelf... somewhere)
... my sleep (Oh well that's definitely one of the things I miss the most!)

Things that reappeared during the last weeks...
... blushing (well I guess it was never really gone but not it wasn't quite as extreme as it is nowadays)
... the pain (as it always does if my head can't stop thinking about one thing)
... doubts (there you are again my sweet companion)

Things that get lost from time to time but seem to find their way back to me (not always in time)...
... my mind (It's gone and nothing seems to work. Which is kind of embarassing if you're not capable in talking or doing whatever like walking,breathing etc.)
... my knee cap (Well it only leaves me for a few seconds but... o_O)
... my smile (Oh yes it leaves me in all those nice situations and it takes its time to come back to me...)

So if you may come across any of the first four just hit me (in both ways) or if you have any idea how I could persuade the last three to stay with me I'm always open for suggestions!