prezzel of passion

I seriously think I am losing my mind.... slowly but I'm losing it. Everytime I see you I want to throw little objects at you. Like a pencil case or something similar. It takes all of my might to control myself not to yell at you. To tell you all the things that are going on in my mind. I sit still in my chair or stand there not moving every single time you walk by in order not to do something completely stupid. And whenever I began to relax I tell myself that it's only a few days until this is over. Only a week, only a few days.
Maybe a nice bit of yelling would help me coping with this but then again it might be a little bit awkward since we never spoke to each other... or rather with each other. So I thought my actions would give you some kind of a clue of how I am feeling towards.... this. But maybe I was wrong there again. Since ignoring you didn't help I felt this glare was necessary and I was pretty sure from the look on your face that you had understood what I was trying to say. Obviously you didn't get it or you got it and I have no idea why you're keeping this whole thing up. I mean how am I supposed to get over this this way? It hardly seems fair.
I am not quite sure how I want you to act but definitely not this way! This is driving me insane. When I see someone who looks like you I am cursing him in my mind. Following every of his steps and hating each one. And believe me there isquite a number of guys that look like you. It can't go on like this... I know that. But then again I have no idea how to cope with this. And maybe that's why I am writing this. I know that you'll never read this and probably never know how I am feeling but maybe posting this will help me. Keep my mind at my side for another week, another few days....
And after all the only thing I can say is that I am hurt, that's all. I guess I will be alright right? Won't I?



"But you put on quite a show.
Really had me goin'
But now it's time to go,
Curtain's finally closin'.
That was quite a show.
Very entertainin'.
But it's over now.
Go on and take a bow."

-Rihanna

Just felt like pointing that one out again! Feels pretty good singing/shouting this lyrics while driving the car these days....

You realize your seriously bored when you start doing quizzes or something similar to it on the internet.... and since I am a person who is willing to share things I will definitely post it somewhere ;) So here it goes....

[Go to the music player of your choice and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud and press play. Use the song titles as your answers. NO CHEATING!]

What do people assume when they first look at me?
Your Hands are cold (Pride & Prejudice Soundtrack)
To be completely serious my hands do feel cold most of the time....

What will be a big challenge in life for me?
Under the bridge (Red Hot Chili Peppers)
so i should avoid bridges?

Am I a good Girlfriend?
In Pieces (Linkin Park)
as in only parts of me?

How will I die?
This groove (Victoria Beckham)
I didn't even know I had this song... but the answer is slightly scary....

Is someone trying to kill me?
I will always love you (Whitney Houston)
I guess that means no one is trying to kill me right?

What should I do instead of this quiz?
The right man (Christina Aguilera)
-no comment-

What is a bad habit that I should try to stop?
Slip out the back (Fort Minor)
ummm...

What's for dinner tonight?
Past in present (Feist)
left-overs? that's actually quite right

How does the world see me?
Thnks fr th mmrs (Fall Out Boy)
well... you're welcome I suppose....

Will I have a happy life?
crazy (Alanis Morisette)
sounds nice

What do my friends really think of me?
From the ritz to the rubble (Arctic Monkeys)
could someone explain that to me? maybe someone of my friends?

Do people secretly lust after me?
The water (Feist)
so the water lusts for me? O_o

How can I make myself happy?
Bang the doldrums (Fall Out Boy)
Now that's a clear answer!

What should I do with my life?
Everything I am (KanYe West)
well I guess I don't have the talent for that

Why should life be full of so much pain?
Clinging on for life (The Hoosiers)
.....

How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
One and only feat. Fall Out Boy (Timbaland)
*?*

Will I ever have children?
Henrietta (The Fratellis)
As in: yes, one, a girl?

Will I die happy?
A heady tale (The Fratellis)
mmmmh... i don't get it....

What is some good advice for me?
Heal the pain (George Michael)
Well thanks I already knew that one

What is happiness?
Come so far got so far to go (Hairspray Cast)
being on the road?

What is my favourite fetish?
Apologize ft. One republic (Timbaland)
I do apologize for things a bit too often

How will I be remembered?
Thank you very much (Kaiser Chiefs)
You're welcome.... wait we had this one before right?

How do I get more sex?
Goodnight goodnight (Maroon 5)
i don't get this one either....